Kelly, Kaitlynn & I headed to our 24-week appointment & ultrasound this afternoon. All day long I felt joy about today's appointment. I woke up excited and in huge anticipation to see our precious son again. I think part of me was hoping for a big miracle & that things would have drastically changed. The other part of me accepted what was happening and just wanted to enjoy feeling like I was closer to my son than I was yesterday.
It took forever to be seen..... but it was definitely worth the wait. Baby Joshua seemed very happy in my womb! There were no signs of pre-labor at the moment. I was very thankful for the news because to be completely honest, I am not ready for our pregnancy to be over! I am enjoying the time we have with him now since this is the only time we're given!
Kaitlynn was a trooper during the entire visit. We were there 1.5 hours! That was definitely a long time to keep a toddler entertained. Thank goodness for Kelly's Blackberry & UTube! Here is a quick snapshot of me & my sweet girl waiting to be seen by our midwife.
After being seen by our midwife, we all headed into the ultrasound room to finally spend some time watching our baby boy!! He didn't move around much, but we were able to see his little body and hear his sweet heartbeat. It was absolutely surreal. Once again, all I could think about was the fact that our baby boy's heart was beating 138 bpm, and that he seemed very happy. How could things seem fine right now, but knowing what the end of our pregnancy will bring?!
During our visit today, the Lord gave me peace. I was able to enjoy our appt. & ultrasound, and did not worry about the things to come. My heart was guarded and all I felt was love and happiness for my baby boy.
As we left the doctor, I was being reminded that this place we call home, is really not our Home. Our true Home is in Heaven with the Lord. I am so thankful I am doing what I am called to do as a mother - I am keeping baby Joshua safe in my womb until the Lord takes him to our Home. I have so much happiness in knowing that one day I will be reunited with Joshua, and will be able to give him another huge hug. Thank you Jesus for the choice of forever with you & our precious loved ones.
Here are two of our favorite pictures from the ultrasound today.
Meet our son, Joshua Keith Crawford.
This is Joshua's profile picture - his hand is up by his face!
Kaitlynn did that a lot during her ultrasounds as well. Love it!
Not too sure what the top picture was supposed to be, but the main point of this was to have a visual picture of Joshua's strong heartbeat. It was 138 bpm today!
Psalm 23:4 (NLT)
Even when I walk through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.
Psalm 30:5 (NLT)
For his anger lasts only a moment,
but his favor lasts a lifetime!
Weeping may last through the night,
but joy comes with the morning.
Hebrews 4:15-16 (NLT)
This High Priest of ours understands our weaknesses,
for he faced all of the same testings we do, yet he did not sin.
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God.
There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.
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