Joshua's Tombstone

Kelly, Kaitlynn and I spent some time this weekend at Joshua's resting place. We haven't been to his grave since December 24th. His permanent tombstone was finally placed & it was gorgeous. We miss our sweet son terribly.

Our our time out at the cemetery and once we made it home, the sunset was gorgeous! Truly a gift from the Lord after a bittersweet afternoon.

And nothing makes a bittersweet day perfectly wonderful, except for sweet smiles from our daughter and lots of singing from her beautiful voice.

Matthew 11:28-29

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in

heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

Romans 8:37-39

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved

us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,

neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor

depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of

God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Kaitlynn's New PlaySet

Kaitlynn loves being outside, especially in our backyard. Kelly & I decided she was at the perfect age to finally get a playset. It was a huge hit!

It's okay not to be okay!

I recently attended our women's conference at church with Shelia Walsh, Laura Story, & Natalie Grant. Before Joshua was born, I knew I needed to be at that conference. It was about Embracing wholeness and receiving God's grace on your life. The weekend of the conference was such a sweet time for me. I felt so many different emotions, and most of them were wrapped around my son, Joshua.

Some days are great.... other days are okay..... and then there are those days that come around that are absolutely horrible. The one thing I will always remember from the conference - It's okay not to be okay because God's grace and love covers it all.

Here we are, middle of February - Valentines Day. I have the most precious gifts surrounding me everyday - a completely devoted & loving husband..... and a sweet and precious daughter. However, I still find myself completely heartbroken because I'm not holding my son, calming his cries, feeding his empty tummy, and enjoying all the 2-month old expressions. Even though my heart breaks tremendously, more than words can express - I am 100 times thankful that Joshua is not having to experience any of the pain that would have come with Triploidy. He is healed & is spending our Valentines Day with our Heavenly Father that loves us more than we could ever begin to imagine.

Even in the depths of my heartache over my son Joshua, I am so thankful the Lord has entrusted me with our precious daughter, Kaitlynn. She is truly a joy in my life. Her smiles, laughs & hugs makes the tough days a lot easier. The Lord never gives us more than we can handle. I truly believe he blessed Kelly & I will Kaitlynn before walking us through the loss of our son, Joshua. Thank you Lord for all your many blessings, and heartaches. For through both of them, you bring us closer to you!

Happy Valentines Day!! May your hearts be filled with love for family & friends....

but most of all for the Lord.

Building 429 - Where I Belong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOtsB4O1p3o

Currently Reading -

When the Bottom Drops Out by Robert Bugh

*Psalm 116*